I'M BAAAACCCKK... Did ya miss me?? .. I missed me!

Soooo I have really had an internal battle raging inside of me these last two and a half weeks.. I don't know how or why this happens... but I do know it happens EVERYTIME I try to get my life back on the healthy side! .. I WANT THIS SOOO BAD.. I REALLY REALLY DO... so WHY... ? .. WHY?! ... WHY is it sooo hard to follow through?!

Life ..

EMOTIONS..
EMOTIONS...

Children..

EMOTIONS!!.. .

I am trying to learn how to set aside the emotional habit of eating and love myself for who I am and what I am going through .. love myself enough to make the right choices because I know I CAN! .. I have been there.. I have made the right choices even in difficult times.. NOW I need to recommit to being strong, living strong, and self motivate..

I have noticed a big difference in the way I have felt the last two weeks, even though it was just about 6 weeks that I stayed motivated and made the right choices, the last two weeks when I haven't have been really hard, and I feel like CRAP! .. I feel like all the hard work that I have accomplised in the last little bit is for NOTHING! .. But I am NOT going to dwell on that.. NOPE not this time.. I am living from this day on! .. I am going to be accountable each and every day.. I will recommit everyday! .. I am moving forward! ... I WANT THIS!

For once in my life I am going to do something for me..



Do you see what I see.... Finally noticing small changes

After being frustrated and feeling so low, I was quickly picked back up by the BEST family and friends EVER!! ... I am fighting even harder right now, and know that I am gearing up to give it my all!! .. I know the changes are slow and hey I haven't really noticed anything significant but ....



DO YOU SEE WHAT I SEE??? ...   Cheek bones!!! ... I will be admiring them all day!! .. 

And that is all I have to say today!! 

LOVE you ALL thank you for all your support!!